Still, Still Alive
I’ve not posted much, in part because June is always a month of drama and aching for me, and this year hasn’t been that much different. Although it has had a few upsides, most notably involving people I feel close to.
June has for over a decade been a bad month for me and it adds to the pressures and stresses when I remember things in the course of the month. As far as the stresses go, I’m not entirely sure that July will be any better in that regard.
By Sunday mornings, I can feel the dread of Monday and the week ahead; in some cases, it’s only having other reasons to get up that make me rise in the morning, and things to get home to that get me through the day.
I’m on the lookout to change jobs already, whether within the organisation – where I already have an interview for transfer in a couple of weeks – or externally. It didn’t take me long to identify problems, took me quite hard having to deal with some of the crap that was thrown towards and at me. Had it not been for not wanting to give up and from support from those dear to me, I would have come close to breaking in just so short a time.
If I don’t post frequently, it’s because I’m swamped or distracted. Most of you probably know how to hit me on Google or something, even if I’m not physically there.
I miss you guys.
I know sort of how you feel my friend, I don’t have quite the same problems you do but it seems like with me it’s one thing after another. I’ve been hesitant to hit you up on Google because I know you’ve got your own stuff going on but if you see me on don’t be afraid to say hi if your so inclined.
I know where you’re coming from buddy, I’m thinking of quitting my job.
I don’t think making a few extra dollars than I can somewhere else warrants feelings of depression.
Good to have you back.
Guisey, I know where you are, sir and completely relate.
I’ve had jobs that I worked at and worked at. Sometimes I’ve even had the dream: “Geez, I could see myself doing this for years…” But then, over time, a new thought overcomes your mind which says “There’s got to be an easier way to make this little bit of money. I didn’t sign up for all this bullshit.” And then I moved on.
My present job has become something I am truly proud of. I am a part of a world class organization and am respected for what I bring every day. It’s rare, but these places exist. If this one isn’t the one – move on. It’s only a job my friend.
FM
Well sorry to hear the job is giving you such a hard time. I only just now noticed that this post existed over on the right hand side there. I thought you had totally dropped off the face of the earth! Anything you happen to post whenever you can is cool. I just enjoy whatever you get round to writing. And I agree with everyone else here. Your own peace of mind and happiness is worth a lot more than the few dollars extra you might make by staying at a job that you hate. I happen to be lucky in that right now I work at a job that I love and it happens to be the highest paying job I’ve ever had, but I can’t see myself doing it for years and years. It’s a nice stepping stone though and I’m grateful that I have it.